current mood: blank
current read: PostSecret blog
current music: Yellowcard stuff
what the heck i'm up to right now: posting and answering a survey thingy.

Warning, don't read this if you don't want a spoiler.

Here's the chain message:

AMAZINGLY ACCURATE, FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS - DO NOT CHEAT.

1) DON'T read ahead

2) Get a PEN and PAPER

3) WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW

4) GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS! Very important for good results.

5) Scroll down ONE AT A TIME.

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2, WRITE DOWN ANY NUMBER YOU WANT. [DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?]

3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.

4. WRITE ANYONE'S NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY) next to 4, 5, & 6.

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11

6. Finally, MAKE A WISH.

- - - - - - - - - -

HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME

1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7

4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS THE YOUR LUCKY STAR

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3

8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7

9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND

10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE

11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER

SEND THIS TO A MINIMUM OF 10 PEOPLE WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.

IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.

IF YOU FAIL TO, IT WILL BECOME THE OPPOSITE

STRANGE HOW IT SEEMS TO WORK.
______

...On second thought, I won't tell you what I got.

followed the wind; _{6:57 PM}

current mood: paranoid
current read: nothing
current music: Saving Me by Nickelback
what the heck i'm up to right now: posting. Obviously.

Just a note. For someone who's not online right now, but oh well. Hoping maybe sometime that person'll actually read this. If ever.

I'm sorry.
I don't know what for, exactly.
But I am.

Lack of understanding, of whatever it is that's going on, doesn't make it any less sincere.

Does it?

I'd like to think that it doesn't.

Because I don't know what's going on. I really don't.
But I'm still sorry.

Your pain draws me to you, but it seems like I'm its cause.
Tell me what to do, tell me what to say, tell me what to think, I don't know anymore.
Tell me how I can heal you, how I can help you, how I can save you, I don't know anymore.
Tell me I did nothing wrong, I did nothing, I did something, I don't know anymore.
Tell me you're lying, tell me the truth, tell me your side, I don't know anymore.

Coherent thought evades me now.
I don't know what to do.

Potent poison rushing through my veins
It's blood now, dark blood, my blood
Running, flowing, killing
Drop by drop
I'll bleed it out.

followed the wind; _{7:54 PM}

current mood: tired o_o Is that a mood? :/
current read: some scripts.
current music: some music.
what the heck i'm up to right now: some things.

Heh. This shall be a [blah] post void of any energy or enthusiasm. I can't do/say/think anything without having to muster so much effort.
I am a busy laptop running on 4% battery charge. Without a charger.
Yeah. Everything is just taking so much out of me. And I don't have that much in me to begin with.
So...I don't know. I'd like to say sorry to a few people, for various things, but mostly for not having enough energy to listen.
Hato-chan/Okaasan. Because, because, because. I don't know. I've been distant, ne? You've always been listening to my rants and all...so...I'm sorry. I know you're not having the best of days, and I should have been there to at least listen and stuff. So yeah. Sorry, mother :c
Hitsuji-niichan/Hitsuji-neechan. Because, because, because. I've been bothering you. I think. I don't know. Sorry :c
Buta-chan. Because, because, because. I have become a burden. And stuff like that. Right? Right? I'm sorry :c
Hitsuji-chan/Okaasan. Because, because, because. I've been bothering you, and these past few days I've done nothing significant for our project. Oh, yeah, and I've been a very, very stupid writer--thus, affecting our project and stuff. Sorry :c
Inu-chan. Because, because, because. I've been neglecting you lately. I don't know. No time, I guess. Sorry :c
Ushi-kun. Because, because, because. I have not been a very good follower. Nor have I been a proper sibling. I don't know. I guess...I don't know. I don't know exactly how I can help you. So I suppose I haven't really been trying, have I? *guilt* Sorry :c
Raccoon-kun. Because, because, because. I have been very testy lately. I'm sorry; it's just...times are not as good as they used to be (if they ever were good XD;), and I don't know. Stress and all. But still. I shouldn't really be taking it out on you, right? So...sorry :c Oh, yeah, and happy birthday XD
The CG (well, the 6 whom I haven't mentioned yet, anyway). Because, because, because. I don't exactly know. Basta, I know I should be saying sorry. Really. So...CG people, sorry :c (Oh, come on, you know who you are, right? The initials are a bit obvious, but I suppose only if you actually know what they stand for o_o;;)<--And sorry for this malabo apology, too :c
Hm. That's all I can think of right now. So yeah.
_______
"I am just...blah."

followed the wind; _{8:49 PM}

current mood: chipper ^^
current read: nothing..
current music: Grand Theft Autumn by Fall Out Boy
what the heck i'm up to right now: sticking dental wax onto my molar bands and cross-posting this entry in Livejournal.

Hn. My braces have been on for...uh...about a day.
I couldn't find the dental wax stuffies this morning, so I had to go around (and eat >_<) with the molar bands' metal hooks poking craters into my tongue. I couldn't find the usual oatmeal, or even the porridge, so I got a pancake and tried dousing it in milk (yeah, I'm sort of weird that way) so it would get a bit softer, but no go; my tongue kept pushing up against the molar bands, and so, yay, I eventually get some sore, cut-up spots on it.
Around lunchtime, after my excruciating meal of rice and really soft fish drowned in broth, my mother came in with about a plastic bag full of dental wax. You see, I'd phoned her about my lack of the wax earlier today, and she said she was going to look for the packet my dentist gave me yesterday. Well, aside from finding it, she also bought about a month's supply of it, so I've got packets and packets of dental wax in my bag right now. Yeah, I'm keeping 'em close, because my tongue is battered enough as it is.
Anyway, aside from my little problem with the molar bands, my braces aren't half as bad as people make them out to be. Okay, so I'm pretty sure I look even more like a nerd now, and I can't eat cookies (SOB T_T) and stuff because my teeth keep feeling all tingly, but...my braces don't hurt. As in, not painful or whatever; there's that little dull ache that's caused by the pressure on my teeth and all, but that's it. No agony or something.
Which is good, I guess.
Now pass me some more of that dental wax.

followed the wind; _{1:32 PM}

current mood: lost. dejected. a bit envious. angry. confused.
current read: A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby
current music: Discovering the Waterfront by Silverstein
what the heck i'm up to right now: thinking. heh.

Twice.
Twice I had to be reminded about how wretched my life with my family(?) is.
There.
Straight to the point, because there is no point in rambling on with meaningless sentences.
I know, no one meant anything. Well, it wouldn't mean anything to them, because they don't look like the type of people who actually experienced whatever they were talking about.
So there.
It's not their fault.
And I suppose I can't do anything if my life falls into a certain stereotype.
So let's just say that this whole thing is another one of my big, stupid mistakes.
That's what they'd say.
That's what they'll say.
Damn, why is it Saturday?
Right now I'd wish for...any other day but today.

followed the wind; _{9:36 AM}

current mood: high and not-so-high. ohyeah
current read:Belsha's blog :D
current music:Sophomore Slump by Fall Out Boy
what the heck i'm up to right now: trying to figure out who's assassinating who XD

Um. I don't know. These are mostly academic updates, so yeah XP
TXV is going okay so far--I'm working on Chapter One with Yana, yay :D Quintin's our editor. Wala lang.
Anyway. Yay. Didn't fail Physics LT2 ;P
Um...where did that come from?
Haaaai. I am sabog ngayon. Heh.
We've got this game in SocSci called Assassins, where you're randomly assigned a person-target that you have to assassinate. Rules are a bit complicated (sort of), but killing people is easy: You just go, "You're dead." Ohyeah XP
There have been some nice plans so far, and alliances have been formed as well :3 (Certain people in a certain alliance have been especially nice XP) Some people have been going paranoid, and some people have tried figuring out who's killing who. I'm one of the latter, and between myself, Raymond, Inna, Ingrid, and the aforementioned alliance (who shall remain anonymously anonymous XP), we've come up with an almost-complete list of,uh, who's killing who. Heh XD
Um, we also had a KQ meeting outside the Guidance Office this afternoon. HumhumhumLet'snamethetemplesO****andO****humhumhumnoonewilleverfigureitouthumhumhum
XD
Hahaha. Told you I'm weird today. Because we have no classes tomorrow, since it's fair, I am HAPPY. Ohyeah. XD Because I am currently feeling quite murderous/angry, since there are certain reasons and stuff, I am ANGRY. >:E Because I am currently feeling sort of sad, since there are certain thoughts whirling in my head right now, I am...uh...sad :'(
Ohwell.
At least it's fair tomorrow, and people are coming in costume XP

followed the wind; _{5:33 PM}

current mood: :)
current read: The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
current music: Sophomore Slump by Fall Out Boy [wahaha. LSS. Kuya DR's fault XD]
what the heck i'm up to right now: posting random quizzle results ;P

Don't expect any comments or anything, though. This is a last-minutes post--sort of. Squeezed in between brunch and a dentist appointment. Heh. So I'm just copy-pasting :D

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker. While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

And another one...Which is weird, but whatever. Is it true, though? XD I don't know myself that way. Heh. XD

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

And last one...

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.

Now this one, I know, is perfectly true :D
Sunshowers! :))

followed the wind; _{12:18 PM}